Wednesday, March 11, 2009

"A mother's joy begins when new life is stirring inside... when a tiny heartbeat is heard for the very first time."

Yesterday Mark and I finally got to go to the doctor for our first prenatal visit! Mark wasn't too happy about how long we had to wait to see the Doc and went on a little tirade about why even make appointments if we have to wait this long and blah, blah, blah...I just laughed at him and said get used to it!!! Anyway, it did take a while but the doc finally came in, did a delightfully fun physical exam on me (Mark was so excited to be there for that...not!). The doc said that everything looked great and healthy, which is always great to hear, and he said I was almost 13 weeks and gave us a due date of September 18th, which is about when I figured

Then the best part happened...we got to hear the heartbeat! It took the doc awhile to find it cuz it's so tiny but eventually we got to hear it and it was so cool! Makes me feel so much better to have heard that because now this seems so much more real! It's really weird for the first little while cuz it doesn't seem real, I haven't been too sick, haven't gained hardly any weight yet, and there's only been a few changes so this was so great to finally be able to do! Now I have to be patient and wait for TWO whole months to be able to get a sonogram and see if its a boy or girl! *Sigh*.....that seems so far off! But I think I can make it :) There's a lot to do in between so hopefully I can keep busy again til then! Mark's really excited for that one too! He's so funny...he was so excited to hear the heartbeat. It'll be fun to see how he reacts to everything else during the pregnancy and especially when the baby's born! He's so great though, I couldn't ask for a better husband and father to my baby!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

"All human wisdom is summed up in two words - wait and hope." --Alexandre Dumas--

So we found out this past week that its going to take even longer than we thought to find out the Navy's decision about Mark's application. Ugh. Not what I wanted to hear at all. I want to know now. But I've decided the Lord is testing my patience right now, which as I've said before, is greatly lacking, almost non-existent anymore. Which is why I need to work on it! Especially with being pregnant and having a baby in the future...patience might be useful with all that.

So I've been trying to be patient, waiting for the Navy. I was doing really well up until we found out it would take longer. So I'm trying to get back to that spot. I'm hoping I will be distracted this week by everything that's going on so that I won't have to think about the Navy too much. I've got lots of fun tests this week and lots of studying to do. But what I'm most looking forward to is Tuesday, which is when I have my first doctor's appointment. I'm a wee bit nervous but also very excited! I've been impatiently waiting for this to happen too but I'm finally almost there so that's one thing down on my impatient list!

I've decided though that the Lord is trying to give me a learning experience in His testing my patience. I was just reading a really good talk by Elder Richard G. Scott entitled "Trust in the Lord" and it was just so great. It really was just what I needed to read at the moment. Elder Scott spoke of how the Lord gives us challenges and trials in our lives to help us grow. So this whole Navy thing is a bit of growth experience for me, mostly in patience, but also in trusting in the Lord that whatever happens, whatever the outcome is, it will be alright.

I really liked this quote though from Elder Scott. He said, "This life is an experience in profound trust- trust in Jesus Christ, trust in His teachings, trust in our capacity as led by the Holy Spirit to obey these teachings for happiness now and for a purposeful, supremely happy eternal existence. To trust means to obey willingly without knowing the end from the beginning...To exercise faith is to trust that the Lord knows what He is doing with you and that he can accomplish it for your eternal good even though you cannot understand how He can possibly do it."

So if we don't get in then I'm sure we'll be very disappointed but if that's what the Lord wants, then I'm sure it'll work out for the better. It'll sure be an interesting experience going to school, having the baby, working, and being dirt poor...but I guess there's tons of other college students out there doing the same thing so we'll get through it. :) And if we get in, then that will be a whole other interesting experience. So even though I don't know what's going to happen,I do know that I can trust in what the Lord has in store for my lil' family and we'll get through whatever comes our way. :)

So yeah...there's my little spiritual tirade for the year...I don't often do that, but I really enjoyed that talk and felt like sharing. Plus people keep asking me
about the Navy and everything so I figured I might as well just put it out on here.

(I just put this on here cuz I wanted a pic and this is one of my favorites and its nice and pretty and springy and I so badly want it to be spring already!!! I HATE the cold!)